merry christmas, ya filthy animal.
Dec. 26th, 2021 04:29 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
yumenonakaewelp, turns out there's no such thing as "safely gathering" when people are withholding information. we had our family christmas yesterday, thinking we were all in the clear, but then one cousin canceled last minute and said his family wouldn't be coming. we were all under the impression it was because his wife was working, but turns out he has covid! and he just... didn't tell us. i didn't find out until he texted me later to tell me. none of us have seen him recently, except his mom and siblings who 1) knew he'd been sick all week before he tested positive, and 2) knew he tested positive! but they showed up anyway, and didn't mention it to any of us the entire time. i'm assuming they figured they were in the clear because they had last seen him a week ago and weren't feeling unwell at all, but none of them got tested either, so there's no way they could know for sure. and then two of my other cousins showed up and mentioned in passing that their dad stayed home because he wasn't feeling well. today their mom dropped by on the way through town, let herself in, and then told us my uncle was now feeling pretty achy and fatigued, but he didn't have a fever and he "didn't look sick." my mom seemed to accept this logic, but i gave her a hard time about it and she ended up calling my uncle to tell him to get tested.
sheeeesh. i mean, i'm grateful i got to see family, especially after such a hard year for our family, and after such a shitty christmas last year when dad was in the hospital and we couldn't have anyone around for moral support. but at the same time i feel guilty, like it was a bad idea. my immediate family at least is boosted, and a handful of my cousins. the rest of them i'm not so sure (it's a touchy subject now since the wife of my cousin--who got covid!--has been espousing some antivax and lowkey "q"-gateway views lately). for now, my siblings and i have canceled our plans for the next few days and my sister and i already have our tests scheduled (which for me was a pain because kaiser's website sucks, so now i'm just going to some random place in town to get it). i'm really hoping my cousins do the same -- we suggested it pretty heavily, but there's only so much nagging and advising they'll listen to. honestly, i won't be surprised considering the rate of cases if we end up getting sick. i'm hoping the jabs are doing their jobs, but there's such unpredictability with this thing that i guess i should just be prepared for anything.
until then, i might as well make the most of this time i have both off from work and stuck at home. it's been a while since i've had this combination of circumstances. o_o maybe read, write, paint, catch up on movies and shows? probably monitor how i'm feeling like a hawk, that's for sure.
anyway, all that aside, i did have a nice christmas. i've had a lot of anxiety this month thinking about last year, and at some points christmas music and even the christmas decorations my mom put up were triggering me. but i'm grateful that a year later my dad is here, and healthy, and home for the holidays and not in the ICU where we weren't allowed to see him (last year, my sister and i drove up to sac to drop off some things he wanted to have during his stay, and we had to hand it off to the front desk for a nurse to bring to him. sitting in the parking lot sucked, knowing he was right inside the building and we couldn't even glance at him). our morning was lowkey, spent in our pajamas sitting around the fireplace we only ever actually use on christmas, and opened gifts. we got our parents a chromecast to hook up to their old fossil of a tv, and my siblings got me new crocs and a tofu press (no more having to keep my old chemistry textbooks in my kitchen). my sister's partner got me a banneton, which is a good excuse for me to get back into breadmaking. with the year rounding out, i keep finding myself thinking about things to do more in the new year, habits i want to keep and start and get back into and all that. i guess i'll have a lot of time to think about that this week...
sheeeesh. i mean, i'm grateful i got to see family, especially after such a hard year for our family, and after such a shitty christmas last year when dad was in the hospital and we couldn't have anyone around for moral support. but at the same time i feel guilty, like it was a bad idea. my immediate family at least is boosted, and a handful of my cousins. the rest of them i'm not so sure (it's a touchy subject now since the wife of my cousin--who got covid!--has been espousing some antivax and lowkey "q"-gateway views lately). for now, my siblings and i have canceled our plans for the next few days and my sister and i already have our tests scheduled (which for me was a pain because kaiser's website sucks, so now i'm just going to some random place in town to get it). i'm really hoping my cousins do the same -- we suggested it pretty heavily, but there's only so much nagging and advising they'll listen to. honestly, i won't be surprised considering the rate of cases if we end up getting sick. i'm hoping the jabs are doing their jobs, but there's such unpredictability with this thing that i guess i should just be prepared for anything.
until then, i might as well make the most of this time i have both off from work and stuck at home. it's been a while since i've had this combination of circumstances. o_o maybe read, write, paint, catch up on movies and shows? probably monitor how i'm feeling like a hawk, that's for sure.
anyway, all that aside, i did have a nice christmas. i've had a lot of anxiety this month thinking about last year, and at some points christmas music and even the christmas decorations my mom put up were triggering me. but i'm grateful that a year later my dad is here, and healthy, and home for the holidays and not in the ICU where we weren't allowed to see him (last year, my sister and i drove up to sac to drop off some things he wanted to have during his stay, and we had to hand it off to the front desk for a nurse to bring to him. sitting in the parking lot sucked, knowing he was right inside the building and we couldn't even glance at him). our morning was lowkey, spent in our pajamas sitting around the fireplace we only ever actually use on christmas, and opened gifts. we got our parents a chromecast to hook up to their old fossil of a tv, and my siblings got me new crocs and a tofu press (no more having to keep my old chemistry textbooks in my kitchen). my sister's partner got me a banneton, which is a good excuse for me to get back into breadmaking. with the year rounding out, i keep finding myself thinking about things to do more in the new year, habits i want to keep and start and get back into and all that. i guess i'll have a lot of time to think about that this week...
